5:47pm

Friday

If you don't bother about me, please leave this page.

You see, this is life.
One moment, someone is fine, and another, the person's mood will change.
I for one, now will learn to accept things in whatever mood the person is.
Since its the person who's speaking for itself, i should take things spoken by the person seriously.
So, Angry, Sad or Happy, i'll take everyone and anyone's words the way they mean it, there and then.

To be honest, everyone knows me well.
I take everyone's remarks seriously.
I may not be open enough to show my feelings since its the utmost wrong thing to do.
Hence, this question always bugs me.
What is it with me that makes me such a bad person?

Do not deny this.
Most of the times that i say that im nice guy or something, most, would scoff at this remark.
Well, i don't understand. Would someone please enlighten me?
I seriously don't, it would really hurt if the person is someone whom i hold close and dear to me would scoff at the remark.
Maybe even if someone ment it as a joke, but hence, my first paragraph states everything.
Yeah, i am what you call Sensitive, and i cannot change that.

Now you know that yeah, im hard on the outside.
But soft on the inside.

Now let's talk about this big word.
TRUST.
Yes, trust.

I've been changing my ways since the year 2007 and i think people do trust me.
But still, it pains for them to admit.
I'm not referring to anyone in particular because its not only one person.
You see, trust isn't a small word.

One might tell me that one trusts me, but then, end up hiding things from me.
But still, you have the cheek to tell me that you trust me.
Well, again, im not referring to anyone, but hey, if you have to lie things to me, you can keep your trust.
Just to let everyone know, nobody has been telling the full truth.
There's always parts here and there, missing.
Or the truth is just plainly changed.
You see, however bad anyone lies, i can sense that something isn't right.
You might think that you've gotten away with it thinking that i don't know about it.
But your wrong.
NOBODY COME AND ASK ME IF THIS REFERS TO YOU. YOU ANSWER IT YOURSELF.

Lastly.

Everyone should keep their motherfucking egos to themselves.
Do not think too highly of yourself.
You might be my friends, but theres always another part of me that i'll always keep to myself.
Again, don't ask me who this refers to.
You know for yourself.

This is what's in my heart and its not easy to spot a post like this..
Mohamed Firdaus.

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