10:14am

Thursday

Okay.
POA test today, and i slept at 6am.
I wanted to sleep last night, but i kept tossing and turning.
Woke up around 10am.

Now i'm here facing the damn laptop and not studying.
I honestly think i can pass, but i want an A.
So we'll see, yeah ?



Mohamed Firdaus.

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9:00pm

Monday.

AHH.
MUAY THAI WAS DAMN PAINFUL.
I was up doing padwork with this 47 year old chinese guy.
And mind you, even after the paddings, his kicks were fucking deadly.
My arms were left blue black after an hour.
Imagine those kicks being rammed at your thighs, ribs and necks.
He will murder ordinary people.
Like all of you.

But when it was my turn, he taught me stuff too.
It's not about power, its about technique.
He was there for over a year and learnt muay thai at other places.
So he's good.

Left the place around 8.
Fuck ERP steal $2.50 from me today.
School was fine, POA was fine too.
I still haven't gotten my peach tea from Flasharina -.-" .

School starts at 10 tomorrow.
But i'm dead tired.
Think i'll still stay up late tonight.


Mohamed Firdaus. 
Expected a call after my message was sent last night.
But nothing.

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11:00pm

Sunday

WELL.
Today was okay.
Woke up early to run errands.
Like doing my bike.
Went to johor with Izan and some traffic police cop which asked about my bike -_-"
So i showed him the shop where i did up my RXZ then he paid for my petrol and makan money. WAHAHA.
Nice guy.

K, after breakfast, went to make my seat abit higher.
Went to service my bike, change engine oil and stuff.
I saw an exhaust that costed 500RM AND I WANT IT SO BAD.
I want my RXZ to have pickup, it can already run 170-180km/h :D.
!!!!
Izan step siol, bawak GSX1000 nak race.
K, met up some other friends there and went back to SG.

Reached home around 3-4?

Went back out to balestier to run some other errands.
Got everything that i wanted to do done today.
I'm so productive today! :D
Cause being preoccupied keeps my mind away from things.

There's gonna be school tomorrow and by bike is currently at bukit timah -.-"
Think i'll pick it up later in the morning, round 5am.
Went to get my speedometer checked and brake done.
If i wake up late, i gotta take the damn MRT.
But i can't be late since i've got to be at raffles by 5:15pm for muay thai.
Maybe i'll do boxing. Ahhh i can't, my left hand's knuckles hurts from something, heh.

Mohamed Firdaus.
Enough is enough.

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9:00pm

Saturday

Not a voice heard.
Not even a reply.
Nothing.

I have no idea what's wrong.
I thought everything's going fine.
Apparently it isn't.

You're a coward.
If i did something wrong, tell me what i did in my face.
If i can, i'll offer an explanation.


My mind's been racing all day.
But what's the point.
You don't seem to care.


You give me codes.
I have to make things out, just to know what i did wrong.

I dropped all my pride tonight.
I actually called.


But the way you reply, just seems to me like you don't care.
So i'm not gonna bother anymore.
I'm not like your previous guys.
I know how i'm suppose to be treated.

But since i'm not going to get any answers.
Then be it. 
I'll get the answers myself.
Be prepared. 
You're warned
Whoever is making you do this, has no idea what their up against.

I don't like to be treated like this for something i didn't.

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10:19am

Saturday

OKAY.
Think i'll do boxing today.
I wanna do mixed martial arts but since i haven't done Brazilian jiu jitsu, i'll be at a disadvantage.
Brazilian Jiu Jitsu are ground fighters.

So it's like,
Fir vs Upfighters = Win.
Fir vs Range fighters = HAHAHAHAHAHA, TAE KWON DO IS FUCKING FULL OF CRAP.
Fir vs In fighters = Draw.
Fir Vs Southpaw = Draw.
Fir vs Groundfighters = Die.


And hence, the results above are if the person skills is of good quality.
Not some fuck who calls themselves a fighter and say, fuckyeah i can fight.
Remembering all those lepak-and-void-deck-times. They're all probably not much of a problem.

Not that i'm saying all those are matreps are bad fighters.
Maybe out of 100, 2 can actually put up a fight.

Wellll, somethings wrong.
But im confused.

Mohamed Firdaus.
Read the red letters.

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9:36pm

Monday

REAL TIRED
Muay thai takes alot out of a person.

Well.
Went town with my classmates yesterday.
Awesome day. :D
Those who were there were.
Rina, Azeeana, Nicole, ASHOK, Roy, Kenneth, Peiqi.
Fuck, Eugene and Gordon can't come.

Well.
Today, had a break from 9:30am - 1pm.
3/4 of the class went to IMM and ate together.
Fucking stupid questions being asked, but hey.
I got information now, :D

Left, went to do POA at 1pm, which sucked.
I kana scold, wtf.
Ahh wellll.

Suddenly, my craving for speeding just went away.
Which is cool.
It's like, cruising on the expressway on 90-110km/h. :D
Not like some cbfuck going 150km/h - 170km/h and risking my life cuz you can't do that on the lanes and i hafta squeeze between cars at that speed o.0
Mehhh, imma talk on msn now.

Mohamed Firdaus.
All my life. 

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2:28am

Friday.

Well.
The world is asleep.
But i just can't sleep.
I'm kinda depressed.

Don't exactly wanna call anyone up to bother them.
So i'll rant it all out to my blog.
Then again, i think i won't.

I'm distraught.
I'm thinking, either if i should leave completely.
I don't want things to go on, if things are going to be this way.
As much that i want to stay, i know i have to leave.
There's no point in staying if i'm treated this way.
And you refusing to change.

I thank god someone close that someone close to me actually called at 1am just to talk.
Let out my feelings abit, and for once, i'm being told it's not my fault.
I was told to wait and see what happens, but i'm tired of waiting.
She isn't going to change.
I see that now.

I'm so angry now.
I'm being treated like this and i can take it ?
WTF IS WRONG WITH ME.
I'M FIR.
I DON'T TAKE THIS FROM ANYONE.
FUCK IT.
IF I BEING TREATED THIS WAY, WHAT? I MUST TAKE IT ?!
I NEED TO FUCKING GET MYSELF TO NORMAL.
HONESTLY, WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO THE FIR I KNOW.
THIS ISNT HIM. NOT EVEN CLOSE TO HIM.

Mohamed Firdaus.
Seriously, what happened to the Fir that everyone once knew before 13 march.
Guess some things do change a person.
I'll track back and try to be who i really am.
Even if everything works out fine, im gonna stay this way.
I'm Fir.
And thats a fucking threat.

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9:46pm

Sunday.

Today just got way fucking better.
My dad told me he was gonna get me a CBR900 since i fucking love his bike.
But I can only ride it in malaysia.



I've already got another RXZ there to race at Pasir Gudang.
The specs are made for racing.
Everything modded. Hah.

But my dad forbade me from using the CBR900 to race since if i fall, the cost of repair would like, kill me -.-"
I really cant fucking wait.


Tomorrow's school.
Mehhh i'm starting to miss WRSS cause of the crap we did in between lessons and during recess. 

Mohamed Firdaus.

I'm Miss You.

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10:27am

Sunday.

Yesterday ended negatively.
But it started way fucking better.

First of all, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY.
I sayang Mama alot.


Reached home round 11pm last night from RP.
WHAT A DAY.

Brink of something big.
But i held myself down.
There's other people who still love me out thereeeee.
So HELL YEAH, LETS TALK ABOUT TODAY.

Went in Johor with dad round 11:30pm
HE LET ME RIDE HIS CB1300!
WTFOMGGGG!
ITS LIKE. A FUCKING SPEED DEMON.
GOING AT 240KM/H CUZ I DONT DARE GO HIGHER. HAHAHAHAHA.
It's really the best ride everrrr.
Went up close to Malacca.
Did i mention it was like a fucking speed demon?
FUCKING MADE MY DAY TODAY.

Reached home at 4.
Can't sleep.
Rode all the way to geylang to meet all my lost bros. HAH.
Was still feeling pretty down, i was back to reality after riding that DEMONIC BIKE.
I need to know that i have people behind me.
Heh. And people i have.
Just reached home, -.-"

Made my mum breakfast.
:D

Mohamed Firdaus.

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9:19pm

Tuesday.

I'm so tempted to post a song up here to show how things are.
But i'll pull myself back.


Woke up at 9:25am -.-
School starts at 10am -.-""""""""""
Left home at 9:45am -.-""""""""""""""""""
Reached school at 9:55, :D.
SPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEED.

Went over to Dover ITE for some talk about the new school.
FUCK I DIDNT MEET MUZ THERE.
I wasn't allowed to wander around.
Back to school.
Damn Business communications -.-

Ended with a session of Boxing followed by Muay Thai.
Fucking tired. BUT I LIKE IT.

PROUD TO SAY I'M KRU YODSANAN'S STUDENT.
PROUD TO SAY I'M KRU YODECHHA'S STUDENT.
PROUD TO SAY I'M KRU NUENG'S STUDENT.
PROUD TO SAY I'M KRU TOY'S STUDENT.

Mohamed Firdaus.
I'm letting this go by.
But for how long can you stay like this.

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