1:15am

1st Jan 2010

Friday.

New year? So what.
I dont celebrate this annual thig because im actually looking forward to the new year.
I do this since its the day that i can get together with my friends.
Was flooded with sms's wishing me a happy new year.
But the fact is, it aint gonna be a happy new year why?
People who wishes me this Happy new year messages, is sure to hurt one another as the time goes by.
But i do appreciate the effort that they put in, so thanks guys.. REALLY, IM NOT BEING SARCASTIC.
IM SERIOUS.
A new year eh. We'll see how much damage i'll do at the end of 2010.

Spent my new year with some friends whom i really know for some time.
Noor,Dev,Syahir,Yasin and Gopi.
We were all at a friend's place bbq-ing.
The people there were nice.
So i cabbed home early since i have to go out again at like 2am and that i needed to go home first cause my dad said so -.-"

Soon i'll be off to hougang.. To start the new year with a big, painful bang for some people.
Its the best way to start a new year!

This new year,
I cannot promise that i wont be irritating at times.
I cannot promise that i won't change.
I cannot promise that i won't blow my top off, although it hasnt really happened to you. HA. Except some..
I cannot promise that i'll always listen to you.
I cannot promise that i'll always do the right thing.
I cannot promise that i'll always agree with you.
I cannot promise you that i wont hurt you.


However.

I promise that i'll always be there for anyone who needs me.
No matter how angry i am, or pissed with you, i'll be there for anyone.
Im not the kind of person who runs away from problems.
I face them, and i promise ill always be by your side when things dont turn out the way you want them to be.
I fight for the right reasons, and most of you know that by now.
To some, its hard to say Sorry, but its the one damn word that calms me down.

So now, im publicly apologizing to everyone that i've hurt so far the past year.
Not sure if i should do this, but hey.
Everyone makes mistakes. NOBODY LAUGH AT THIS, ESP NABIL, AMA AND REY.
But before you go ahead and think, wow, i forgive Fir, or nah, fuck Fir.
Think, if i ever did hurt you, was it my fault?
Was it for the right reasons?

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