2:28am

Friday.

Well.
The world is asleep.
But i just can't sleep.
I'm kinda depressed.

Don't exactly wanna call anyone up to bother them.
So i'll rant it all out to my blog.
Then again, i think i won't.

I'm distraught.
I'm thinking, either if i should leave completely.
I don't want things to go on, if things are going to be this way.
As much that i want to stay, i know i have to leave.
There's no point in staying if i'm treated this way.
And you refusing to change.

I thank god someone close that someone close to me actually called at 1am just to talk.
Let out my feelings abit, and for once, i'm being told it's not my fault.
I was told to wait and see what happens, but i'm tired of waiting.
She isn't going to change.
I see that now.

I'm so angry now.
I'm being treated like this and i can take it ?
WTF IS WRONG WITH ME.
I'M FIR.
I DON'T TAKE THIS FROM ANYONE.
FUCK IT.
IF I BEING TREATED THIS WAY, WHAT? I MUST TAKE IT ?!
I NEED TO FUCKING GET MYSELF TO NORMAL.
HONESTLY, WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO THE FIR I KNOW.
THIS ISNT HIM. NOT EVEN CLOSE TO HIM.

Mohamed Firdaus.
Seriously, what happened to the Fir that everyone once knew before 13 march.
Guess some things do change a person.
I'll track back and try to be who i really am.
Even if everything works out fine, im gonna stay this way.
I'm Fir.
And thats a fucking threat.

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